Family+Role

I am the outcast in my family. My role as outcast is not as bad as many people may think because I am a very anti social person so I get left alone most of the time, though this role can be rather annoying it keeps me out of some things I would enjoy doing with my family but they assume I just want to be left alone and so that the way it is. My relationships with my family because of this role is not good at all, I constantly get into situations with my family that cause horrible fights which just involve screaming at each other but when I scream at someone I say things that are incredibly hurtful and things that are never supposed to be said to that person. In ways this role is more bad then it is good but its a role that I willingly accept for reasons I don't really understand.